Last night Ryan and I went to Lockerbie Central UMC in downtown Indianapolis, and I found myself struggling to identify what I was experiencing during the worship service.  Just thought I would share a piece from my journal as I sat during the service attempting to grasp the moment...

(from my journal, Sunday night 8/16/09)
"I'm in an unexpected place tonight...its quiet, and there is space here for the Lord to move...to speak. It's uncomfortable, to be honest.  My soul is opening up.  I am familar with the predictable flow of church services that strive to leave people feeling encouraged and uplifted throughout the experience.  But right now, there is no flow leading me towards an entertained or comfortable place.  In this absence of the familiar I am facing myself, and the Lord is stirring an unsettled and convicted spirit.  The fog of my world is fading, and I am coming undone as I see the Lord behind the backdrop of this facede that I so often champion.  I am exposed before Him.  My heart restlessly settles.  And in this eerie quiet, there is peace."

Thanks to Mike, Jordan, & David at Lockerbie Central UMC for helping create a place where the Lord has space to move...

LV